Just as the song title says, life does go on and ours continued.
**I forgot to say a couple things in my last post about coping with our miscarriage, so I'll just add them here. With it being such an early miscarriage it felt that as the weeks went by it almost seemed like it didn't really happen. Anthony and I decided we would name our baby even though we didn't know the gender. It definitely helped us heal and it was nice to be able to put a name to our baby and not have to always refer to it as "the baby". It made it more real to us. I wanted the name to have a special meaning to it and be gender neutral. I searched and searched and finally decided on Shiloh. If you know the story of Hannah in the Bible you will recall that Hannah desperately wanted children but was barren. She and her husband would go every year to the land of Shiloh, where Hannah would pray for a baby. The name Shiloh just seemed to stick with me. And Hannah's story ends with good news. She eventually became pregnant with her son Samuel. I believe this baby was the Lord's way of saying "trust me". I know the Lord will bless us with babies one day, we need only wait on His timing.**
I had mentioned earlier that last year I nannied twin boys up until December. Their mom was able to quit her job and stay home with them, what a blessing!! Before I had agreed to watch the boys I had been planning on applying to Gwinnett County to do some substituting. When I started college I was an early childhood major, but when I transferred from Piedmont to GGC I only had 4 degrees to choose from: psychology, biology, information technology, or business...so I went with business.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for my business degree, but the more I took business classes the more I realized business was NOT for me! I did learn things that I think every person should know, ie: finance, accounting, etc. When I graduated I started the process of becoming a sub, and let me tell you, the requirements have definitely changed! You had to have your 4 year degree and take and pass both sections of the GACE, what?? Crazy...but I studied for the GACE and passed both sections in February (2011). Around that time I was offered the nanny position, and it actually worked out perfectly.
Starting this past March I began subbing in 2 elementary schools and I absolutely love it! Thankfully I knew people who worked at both schools and it definitely helped me get my foot in the door!! I ended up substituting almost everyday towards the end of the year! It kept me busy and it felt like the end of the year flew by! Plus I love being in the school environment and around all the little kiddos so I couldn't have asked for a better job =)
I was scheduled to substitute the last 3 days of school (Mon, Tues, Wed). Since my miscarriage I had become pretty "regular" which was kind of nice, since I hadn't been in quite a while. Monday came around and I decided to take a pregnancy test. I had been having some cramps and I was a few days late, so I thought what the heck? To my utter shock it came back positive!! I guess I should mention the date: May 21, 2012.
I had told myself that if we ever got pregnant again that I would actually surprise Anthony...well that didn't happen! After I had my little cry in the bathroom, I came out to the living room where Anthony was eating breakfast and just showed him the test. He was in shock like I was. We were both very happy, but a little reserved. After you've had a miscarriage it kind of makes you a little apprehensive to get all crazy excited when you know what could possibly happen. According to the calendar I was around 5 weeks pregnant!
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| Positive! May 21, 2012 |
God is so GOOD!
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