Back to the whole reality thing...let me be clear, we haven't given up on belief that the Lord can heal Josiah, and that's what we're praying for. I find myself praying mostly for His will to be done. Ultimately it doesn't matter what I want, it's what the Lord wants. As January 29th gets closer and closer I find myself day dreaming more about what life will be like shortly. It can get overwhelming if you let it. I have found a few families out there that have babies with HLHS. I've learned to not put all of my hopes in one family's success story or all of my fears in another family's devastating experience. Every family that I have followed has had a completely different journey. One family I have really been following lives in Louisiana. Their son, Carson, is 7 weeks old and has been in the CICU since he had surgery the day he was born. I ask that you keep this sweet baby boy and his family in your prayers as they have a long road ahead of them. Pray for healing, strength, and understanding as I can only imagine what they are going through.
I now have weekly appointments at both my OB and the specialist. The specialist appointments are starting to get old...real fast. Thankfully I only have 3 at the most left! Last Thursday Dr. Pohl tested for GBS and also said I was 1 cm dialated, 50% effaced, and Josiah was fully engaged...now if that doesn't make things seem right around the corner I don't know what would. Dr. Pohl also mentioned that he didn't want me going past my due date (January 29th) so we know little man won't be coming late! His reason for this was he didn't want to risk anything (ie: meconium stained amniotic fluid) for the sake of Josiah's heart condition.
Sleeping is still miserable! I wake up to pee/turn over around every hour and a half. My pelvic bone will sometimes pop as I roll over, awful feeling! My heartburn has slowed down a good bit, so no complaining there =) I don't think I've had any false contractions, at least none that have gotten my attention. Other than the whole sleeping bit, life has been pretty normal! I've slowly but surely been getting the hospital bag ready, but some things you just can't pack until the last minute. Now that all of the baby showers are over we have been organizing and putting things away in Josiah's room. While doing so, we've realized this kid has more clothes! I'll have to change him 3 times a day so he can wear all of his 0-3 month things =)
Now time to go get ready for our hospital tour, so exciting!!
"Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him."
~James 1:12~
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